Transits & Forecasts

Chiron stations Retrograde, June 30, 2017 – Guiding the Pain

"Sebastian II" (detail), by Hedi Xandt - hedixandt.com
“Sebastian II” (detail), by Hedi Xandt – hedixandt.com

Emotional healing work is cyclical. It takes time, and patience; our own personal evolution doesn’t spare us from revisiting old issues time and again, so that we can see them through different eyes and deal with them in more mature, responsible ways. It takes self-forgiveness, because, at times, this cyclical route might feel like failure – like being trapped in the same old schemes, not really going anywhere. It takes courage, because the very act of re-opening old wounds can trigger feelings of frustration and despair.
Healing is not a straight road; there isn’t an actual start, or a finishing line. Most importantly, it’s not a race, and there are no “winners” or “losers” based on the speed or depth of our healing work.
If that was the case, Chiron would stand still. Motionless.
And yet, as it turns out, Chiron’s orbit is more eccentric than any planet or asteroid currently used in astrology – he’s the “maverick” for a reason. Nothing is more personal and idiosyncratic than the way we deal with our own pain and heal through it (I’ve previously elaborated on how and why I think the ‘five stages of grief’ model is, essentially, ableist and culturally deaf nonsense).
The next step in our healing journey begins on June 30, with Chiron’s yearly retrograde station happening at 28°52 Pisces. It is, again, a time in which we’re called to take the bandage off our recent wounds and search for the retained foreign bodies stuck under our skin – the ones that delay the wound healing and trigger systemic infections. It’s time to dig deep once more, no matter how many times we’ve done this before. It’s time to face the pain we’re afraid to feel, to experience it on a visceral level, to understand it, sweat it out. In short, to break the vicious circle of suffering that keeps us stuck in the past through the morbid attachment to unresolved, unlived pain.
Retrograde Chiron asks us to look back in order to realize what unnecessary part of our baggage we’re carrying with us into the future – the one that keeps us from getting closer to a state of balance and empowerment. For this reason, it’s common, during Chiron’s Rx phase, to notice an intensification of pre-existing issues around emotional pain, loss, inadequacy, vulnerability; depending on the extent to which this transit affects our chart, we might also feel more sensitive and easily hurt.
None of this is a symptom of failure. It’s part of our journey as human beings. If anything, our willingness to allow Chiron to take us back to the roots and the core of our pain is a testament to our strength and faith in ourselves.
Freedom waits for us on the other side.
Chiron stations direct on December 5, 2017, at 24°19 Pisces.

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Comments (3)

  • This is an especially intriguing transit for me this year, because this Rx cycle synchronizes with the 19 year anniversary of my father’s sudden death. I was 11 years old at the time. This has been the single most intense wounding event of my life and has taught me more about pain and healing than any other experience I’ve had. I will reflect and allow the wound to be open, and to open my conscious mind to my subconscious emotional currents. This article gives me a layer of connection to understanding the pain and the wounding that wasn’t there before. A new layer, another year. But letting go of attempting to come to terms with suffering in a linear way is beautiful and important for true growth. Thank you so much, as usual, Cristina for a glimpse into a new layer.

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    • Brian, I’m deeply moved by your comment as we share the same wound. I was 8-ish when my father passed away, and that too has been a pivotal experience in my life. Your process of healing sounds like something I can relate to. We indeed do learn a lot from this primal, ancestral pain, as excruciating as it might be sometimes. Love to you.

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  • Cristina,

    Thank you so much for sharing that with me on this open forum. I feel like part of the healing process is being able to bear our wounds without fear. Knowing something so personal about you, something that I have myself experienced, makes me feel connected to you in a special way. I always feel closely connected to people that I have met in my life that experienced such a close loss. It is sharing a deep wound like that I suppose. I have Chiron conjunct my Sun in the eighth house, so having wound so close to my inner self and inner identity has been powerful from the beginning. Adding the external loss of my father made it palpable. Love to you as well, and I hope to do a reading with you sometime to delve deeper into these themes. Love from California!

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